How are you still on my mind at a YoYo Ma concert?

My fingers moved across my skin tearing the pitifully paleness as they go.
I can be here no more.
Two have just gone up and left.

I'm still.

You lull me to a lucid dream of love.

I know this isn't life or meaning but I want you here.

Next to me.

I'm disappearing into you that's all I've needed. 

But that's not real.

I wanted to show you the monster lurking in my everything.

How it distorted your self and mostly mine.

But once again. You woke me up from the ugly lucid dream.

 I just want to scream all my problems to all you guys faces. 

No one even realizes the slightest.