Ever loved someone so much you can barely breathe?-Eminem

I was ready, finally.
It's really what you wished and hoped for and beat yourself for.

I love you. 

So of course, you can't.

You turn off my sun when you leave.

I have to rely on a shitty light bulb so I can at least function.

But without the sun I can't see the moon.

I repeat the same lame story. End this bullshit, pretty please.

LOOK AT ME GOD DAMN YOU.

Like you used to, not like a deal.

I hate your actions like these ones.

But I could never hate you because frankly, it sucks breathing without you by me.

That's me (:^^^

Love you cupcake.

Sincerely, muffin.

I need a happy post.

Someone said your name near by.
Shit, all your memories come in my head.

Alone I can tell myself you are never going to understand me again. 

Next to you I can only think your the only one that does. 

I'm struggling just above the rock waved surface. I'm too caught between everything to decide anything. Please, please, please make a good one soon. 

I swear I will never leave you. I just don't want to date you. 

I'm not going back like that. 

Stay awesome kid. 

Lost.lost.

Close your eyes, shut off everything else also.
Just focus on gripping MY heart.
Not my mind.

                                

I am aware of the fact that whatever pieces of my well being is left will all get shredded to existence and you wont care at all.  Are you?

I thought I could show you what you do, tell you at the least. 

But that's not really going to happen, is it.

Maps couldn't ever help me.

Four things I love the most besides you: My Neighbor Totoro, Bob Dylan, Nevershoutnever, and subtitle pictures:

I don't know. 

I don't know anything.

Most defiantly, I don't know why you're making me go through this once more. 

I know you know I don't know how to say no when you're nervous and upset. 

.....crying and broken.

At life there should be no empty or contemplation  or complication. 

Not one thing should take this much, this long, or hurt this much.