I don't want a life any longer

My head is back spinning off my body.
Where am I suppose to go now?

Oh Dear God,
Thank you for at least giving me power to not let go when literally
every aspect of my life is in shatters.
I just need something else to focus on besides breathing
but that's getting hard too. Amen.

 me^^^

Why are we only friends now? Why are we forgetting everything that has happened? Why are we tell each other only what makes the other happy?

I need you to hold me and kiss me.
Just for once.
All this friend shit isn't possible with me. I love you.
some subtitles:

 I already did.

It's not the firsts I care about, it's the lasts.
Those are the ones I will always remember.

I don't know what direction I'm facing
so how I can I move?
Functioning isn't on my to-do list.

Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. Repeat.
Nothing else.

Oh one more thing.
Just stop crying.